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Zits At War : 03.17.03 @ 9:55 pm "... I never really get thereI just think I'm having one of those days (weeks?). First of all, I'm having this break out thing going on on my face (to quote the great Eddie Izzard, it looks like the plague hit. Even if that's an exaggeration by a lot, its still horrifying). I'm so appalled � I've never been one for major breakouts. Sure, I get minor breakouts (mostly on my chin) sometimes � a few zits here and there but this is ridiculous. Today my forehead had what's got to be the biggest zit I've ever had (which isn't that big compared to some teenagers, but hey this is traumatizing for me, the girl who didn't really start getting actual breakouts until this year!) Yea, so my face looks like a general plague area and I've been layering on the cover up more so then normal. It obviously doesn't "cover it up" (none of them ever do) but it prevents the whole glaring red thing screaming at everyone. So I'm sitting here on my fat ass ("Amy, I think your butt is getting bigger" - Thanks, Mum) drying my face to a shriveled husk with various anti zit treatments.
My realization for this past week? I am really am quite unattractive. This isn't just self esteem issues, I just don't find myself attractive in the least and I know I'm not the only one to think so. I can't look in the mirror and say that I find anything about my face or body attractive, except my eyes. On my better days, I'm not ugly, just not attractive. You know what I mean about that difference?
Though one thing I do want � this is along the same looks of this particular shell I inhabit � I do want to loose weight, for health reasons. A 14/16 isn't obese (at least in my book) but I find myself in real danger of becoming unhealthily large. I don't want to end up with diabetes and I really can't afford bigger clothes right now.
I keep on telling myself that I'm going to eat healthy. Stop eating a full school lunch, no pastries, cut down on the grains and sugars, stop eating at Fuddruckers every half hour off I get at work.
Speaking of Fuddruckers, I'd like to express my annoyance at them for their customer relations. Fuddruckers is right next to the Starbucks that I work at, so I normally go there and get small fries. Today, I wanted a garden burger and fries, but my half was right during their (normal) rush period (you know between 5:30-6:30) and last time I ordered a garden burger it took them like fifteen minutes to get it cooked, leaving me ten minutes to eat a huge ass garden burger and fries. In hopes to avoid this, I call Fuddruckers up before I start my break and ask if I can place a pre order so it'll be ready sooner. It scared me a little, I was sitting at my table eating my garden burger (which really is quite good) and that's all I could think about, was how rude the shift manager was. Which isn't something I normally do � its something my Mum does. My Mum will obsess about someone's rudeness to the point where two days later she's still thinking about it. Normally, I just brush it off and think that maybe they're having a hard day... Anyway. Yea. No need to turn into my Mum any time soon. I'm hoping for another twenty years before I become the lesbian version of my mother.
That Fuddruckers experience was the second rude/annoying conversation of my day.
Oh, and as a side note, We're Officially At War. I wonder what the history books will call this war? (WW3?) /A |