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Chickenshit : 08.06.03 @ 10:17 pm I�m surprisingly tired, which is weird. Lately I�ve been staying up until three because someone is an insomniac and I always staying up talking to her. Then I sleep in till noon and go to work at three. It�s a nice little system actually. Doesn�t leave a lot of time to do productive things like, oh say, Summer Assignments, but it suits my perpetual procrastination and laziness.
Twenty Seven Days till my senior year starts.
Honestly though. While jr. high was certainly worse, there is no way that I�d say that high school makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
I don�t want to think about where I�ll be ten years from now. As I�m telling Felicia right now, I�m not ready to face my future. I�m not ready to go to college, to actually think about what I�ll be doing ten years from now. For the first time, it�s scaring me. The idea wraps itself around my throat, choking me. Choosing the type of brick that will lay the road ahead of me... it makes me sick. I�m such a chickenshit.
I�m just not ready damnit. I need some time to live in the real world before I go off to some expensive private liberal arts school that is supposed to give me the warm fuzzy education that I�ve always wanted.
I keep on thinking that I�ll be really motivated my freshman year. You know, study my ass off, work out (no freshman fifteen!), bring in an amazing GPA so I can transfer to where I really want to go to with ease. All that B.S. Oyi. Enough rambling. |