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Delusions Revisited Once Again : 08.03.03 @ 11:01 pm I like my delusions. They keep me sane, tie me to the world where I�ve been told I belong.
Like I can delude myself into believing that I�m just �not attractive� rather then �down right ugly�.
I can delude myself into believing that I have some form of confidence.
There are nights where I want to slice up my face. Destroy it. I�m not that stupid, obviously. I�d never actually do that. Defiantly a way to bring the self esteem up, ruin everything. (I have nice eyes. It�s true. It�s the only thing I like about my face. Or hell, my entire body. My eyes deserve another face).
And then I have nights where I�m just giddy with happiness over one thing or another. Over actually having a friend. Over going out and doing something. Over having accomplished something small and insignificant. That�s all it is, really. My entire life. |