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Swan Dive : 01.21.03 @ 4:04 pm "...and I've got a lack of informationIt's funny how quickly one can bounce between depression and "weeness". "Weeness" is an Amy-emotion. I've discovered that some of my friends back in Maine have started naming days after me - if they're really hyper, slightly out of it, and doing weird things, its an Amy Day. What's weird is that I'm really not like that all the time (no, I do not have ADHD). I'm quite mellow most of the time and a lot of the times if someone is really hyper it's too much energy for me and I just want to hide somewhere. Anywhere, where was I before my semi explination on the adjective "weeness"? I think there's something strange about the middle of the day. If I'm going to be depressed, I get depressed around my third class, right before lunch. Sometimes - like today - its really sudden. Like I go from "weeness" to "Fuck I want to curl into a corner somewhere and just die" in a period of five minutes. I think its the hormones. Hormones do funny things when you're on the rag. Anyway, all of 5th period (Photography) some evil deamon in my mind kept on whispering sour nothings in my ear. Fuck photography, you'll never be able to be good enough to get into the state school for photography, let alone the really good ones. So why bother? Why are you bothering at all? You won't get anywhere in life. You're going to fail your classes and end up failing at everything in life because you suck. Ooh lookie here, its the razor they use to mat photographs with...
Or something along those lines. Yea. It was bad and very random. I struggled all through last period to bring it up because I knew that if I went to an interview with that attitude, I wouldn't get the job.
Look! Its my happy banana dance!
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