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Lingering : 11.15.03 @ 11:15 pm My cat is licking himself furiously.
She called around five last night, spontaneous as usual. Wanna play? It�s the first thing she says and I�m not sure if I should take that with a double meaning or not. Knowing her, I do, just to be on the - safe isn�t quite the word - safe side. I shower and try to make myself look as presentable as a dyke with no fashion sense can.
We don�t stay long... somehow, for lack of anything better to do, we end up driving around Northern Virginia with John, taking detours and getting only slightly lost. I tease. She can�t drive, she�s horny after only a month of celibacy, and half the people we see that night she�s at least made out with, if not fucked. I bite her shoulder occasionally. She teases. She pokes my thigh at stop lights. She tickles my knees (yes, my knees are ticklish. Not much of my body isn�t). She tickles me in general... bites me...
Around 10:30 we find ourselves at her old elementary school, sitting on the playground�s metal bridge. It�s cold, not just the metal, but the air around us and soon I�m leaning against her, her neck resting on my shoulder, her face resting upside down against my chest.
Then, we�re sitting in my driveway. I don�t want to get out, go back in the house... I climb out of the car. The sky is clearer now then it was a half an hour ago at the playground, but it�s not half as warm out.
I finished my roll by ten forty. The assignment is documentary photography, and I don�t think I covered that really, but I was interested/entertained by the roll. I would focus on one of the museums or monuments on The Mall. Then, I�d wait until someone walked or ran by, and take the picture of them without them even knowing that it had been taken. Yes, this is legal. Maybe a bit unethical, but legal because it�s in a public place and I�m not publishing them. There was this old woman, who looked so lost. Not just in the physical way, but she just looked so mentally confused, lost, and lonely. I followed her for a bit, not stalking, just walking in the same direction that she did. I wish I could have gotten closer to catch the insecurity that radiated off of her. I wish I could have walked up to her and asked if I could take her portrait instead of sneaking it in when she wasn�t looking. I don�t think any on that roll is going to be any good, but it was fun while it lasted.
Allison didn�t show up. I went home early. I was tired and lonely, and I had accomplished what I had planned to.
I thought about her periodically throughout the day. This weird feeling for her, that wasn�t there before, is it just the loneliness? Is it just lust? Or is it something else?
But I just couldn�t get worked up enough to care, or bother trying to switch. Yes, I want to go to the GSA Masque in Falls Church. Yes, I already bought my mask. But... I don�t know. I guess I�m just too mellow today. My raise went through, by the way. I now get fifteen cents more on each dollar.
Amanda M. called me while I was at work.
Maybe this is a good thing. /A |