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Seventy Cents : 11.06.03 @ 10:13 pm I don't know what to do.
When it was over, I wanted so badly to go back stage, like I used to after musicals, and congratulate them all. They did so awesome I just wanted to buy them all roses. But it's not my place. I don't belong backstage anymore. I don't really belong anywhere. This guy was introduced to me and he sticks his hand out - as if to shake it - and I don't quite know what to do, but I give him my hand - as if to shake his - and he does that weird sliding thing I've seen kids do. I've never done it, obviously. The little hand gesture made me question why I've so vehemently isolated myself from many of my peers and their pop culture. I find talking like they do, acting like they do, and dressing like they do, unappealing, but I'm the one that's sitting alone during B lunches, and with people who wouldn't care if I wasn't there during D lunches. I'm the one who spends her Friday nights at home, alone.
When I came back, they were gone. Not the book, just the food. The janitors go about throwing trays away the moment they think you're done, even if you're not. Many a person has had their food snatched up the moment they looked the other way. I said something. I was polite about it, but I still said something. The only janitor putzing about, snatching trays, was an immigrant of Asian decent. His English wasn't good, but he apologized profusely and held out eighty five cents so I could go buy [part of] another lunch. I didn't want to take it. I said it was alright, but he moved his hand closer, palm upturned, coins shiny against his dark, dirty palms.
I didn't want to take it.
The cookies, such a selfish indulgence, became two stones rattling inside my stomach. /A |