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String of Stubborness : 08.25.03 @ 8:11 pm I've started an entry three (four?) times today.
Something I've realized in my writing is that if I'm even the slightest bit depressed and I dwell on it in writing, it makes things twenty times worse. I could be absolutely fine... then have a thought.
Maybe I should stop writing.
How is any of this bull shit that I do, that makes up my life, meaningful? How is my job, my school work, my hobbies meaningful? How is college meaningful? What skills do I have anyway? This is just great Amy. Go from trying to sit down and write a normal, run of the mill entry, to wanting to curl up in a ball and cry for no apparent reason at all.
There are things that I want to write about publicly. Semi-Happy things that give me that goofy grin that so few people have seen.
But just thinking of it causes a small smile to appear and some of the heaviness to my current thoughts. /A |